Little Blog Virgin

Cabin Fever

I’m not sure if many of you can relate, but I’m feeling so tired and frustrated with being home all the time day after day, I don’t see being a stay at home mom as the problem. Its that I’m around either my son or my niece and my son all the time except for Sunday for 5 hrs. Should I be feeling guilty about this? I feel so bad for feeling like I just need a break. I’ve been fighting feeling depressed about it because quit frankly if I admit I feel depressed I would feel like the worst mom ever. Its tough that I don’t have many friends that are mothers them selves or even other stay at home moms. I know this isn’t forever, my Jude will only be this little once! That gets me through each day. I’m really looking forward to putting him into the school up the street once he turns 2 and I start school again. I’ll feel some pride in myself by actually doing something. I’m really wanting to start sewing in the mean time, as a sort of hobby. It doesn’t seem possible at all though. I’m not sure but Jude has been throwing tantrums and is so demanding of attention and love all the time. I really feel he needs more play dates and a sort of outlet for his energy and his eagerness to learn. I already feel bad for posting this! I’m not a horrible mom I swear! I love my son so much and I love being the one to care for him each day but I need to find myself again and there just doesn’t seem to be any room or time for that..